Journal Entry 7

I spend a great deal of time daydreaming these days. When I daydream, I tune out everything that is happening around me, this is not a good thing. Accidents happen when I am not paying attention.

My dreams are of a romantic nature and very distracting.  I feel silly and overwhelmed. I am unable to focus on the simplest assigned tasks.  My mind easily wanders to romantic interludes with Joshua. This makes it nearly impossible to complete tasks safely or in a timely manner. I often drift off and forget what I am supposed to be doing. My daydreaming has recently caused numerous mishaps that have resulted in injury. Luckily, none of the injuries have been life threatening or serious. I have become the butt of jokes and shunned from an assortment of work assignments.

 In my defense, Joshua is very handsome even when he is angry. Everything he does is distracting. I think about the way Joshua tips his hat when he is being polite. The way he puts his boots on in the morning, the way he buckles his belt when he is putting on his guns, the way he gives orders to the others and the way he grabs me to kiss me when he is having a good day.

Joshua has received numerous complaints from the others. Cage is Joshua’s best friend and confidant. The two are like brothers. Cage has banned me from all of his work teams. This has caused angry discourse between Joshua and Cage. They have been avoiding each other all day. Joshua admonished my lack of focus. I have attempted to apologize to Cage.  He is holding a grudge.