Journal 157

Life is very busy here at the Spurs Fort. Joshua never takes a break. He is constantly going from sunup to sundown. I had to make him take a break yesterday to eat lunch. He would have worked straight thru if I hadn’t put up a fuss. I finally have everything unpacked and put away. It took forever. I have a lot of junk. I have moved into the room next-door to Joshua. Joshua wanted me to move my things into his room, but I don’t think I am ready for that yet. I need a little room, a little space to retreat to that is all my own, although, I have yet to sleep in my own room. If truth be known, the only time I have spent in there is when I was organizing and putting my things away. In the evenings, Joshua likes to snuggle, and I don’t have the energy to get up off his bed and go next door. The morning hours come way too quickly, it’s easier if I just stay put.

I am missing one of my diaries. I can’t find it anywhere. I think it might be in one of the drawers of the desk back home in Bear Country. I dread having to go back there but I need that journal. I wish I knew why everyone is mad at me. I suppose I could ask but truthfully, I am a little afraid of what the answer might be.