Journal 12

I feel so bad. No one told Tony that Runt was missing. I was updating the bulletin board in the admin hallway when Tony asked me where Runt was. I just stood there and stared at him. I finally told him that I was sorry. Runt had been missing for days. I tried to explain to Tony why we think Runt left. That he left to find medicine and that Jonas and Matt went looking for him. Tony was so angry that he yelled at me for being irresponsible. He said I should have been more reliable and that it’s my fault if Runt is dead. I don’t blame him for yelling at me. We should have told Tony that Runt was missing sooner.

Runt was not my primary responsibility. He just appeared on our doorstep one day, dirty and hungry. Tony became his friend. Tony is the one who took care of him. This is going to sound stupid, but I honestly didn’t realize that I should have been taking care of Runts needs while Tony was ill. I just assumed that everyone took care of everyone. I have a tremendous amount of responsibility around here. I try to make sure that life around Bear Country runs smoothly and most of the time it does.