Journal 109

My life is full of stress and more stress. Maybe I should reconsider my friends. When I went to bed last night, I was alone. I woke up this morning to find Aleece in my room. I was having a dream and, in my dream, I heard a baby cry. I was looking everywhere for the baby and I couldn’t find it. I was in this building and that building, down by the lake and roaming the halls of Bear Country. I don’t know what exactly made me wake up but when I did, Aleece was in my room crying. I picked up Aleece and went down to the cafeteria to get her a bottle because Casey didn’t think to leave me one. I think I spent most of the morning pissed and angry. I ran into Sheriff Pete in the cafeteria. He asked me if I was having a bad day. I just glared at him probably with an evil expression on my face and continued making Aleece her bottle. Then I ran into Tony, Lisa, and Jonas on my way back to my room. They were discussing something. I don’t know what. Tony asks if I needed some help. I simply said “NO” rather abruptly and kept on walking.  I laid Aleece in her cradle to get a drink of water from the sink because I forgot to get myself something when I was downstairs. I looked in the mirror and had a terrible fright. My hair was a mess. It was sticking up all over my head and then I realized that I had been downstairs without a robe on. I was just wearing my gown.

Aleece was cranky and cried most of the morning. Mid-morning, Aleece decides she needs a nap, and I lay her back down in the crib. I see the note Casey left me. I don’t know why I didn’t see it earlier. The note didn’t make me feel any better.