Journal 81

Lisa has returned to Bear Country. She came back to recruit followers for Aloysius. It was a bit unnerving to see her dressed all in white. I was walking out of the cafeteria with a plate of salad. I was so startled to see her dressed all in white that I dropped the plate. It shattered all over the floor. Lisa has always been a calm-natured person but today she was unusually calm, not unlike the people in my dreams. I can’t shake the feeling that Aloysius is bad.

I know that Aloysius is the leader of a cult. Ok, he is the leader of a cult, but cults come and go all the time. There really isn’t any harm in them, not really. Most cults are just fads that last a little while. The followers of Aloysius don’t seem to be bad people. They parade around a lot and like to party, and they can be a bit overzealous in the recruiting department, but I have not seen anything that would indicate they are evil.

Most of the followers of Aloysius are on the streets to help people. Of course, a few groups yell to the top of the buildings that if you don’t follow Aloysius you are doomed. These are the extremist, and I have only seen a few. My brain is broken. If my mom were alive, she would have taken me to see a good psychiatrist by now.

Victor has been tormenting me all day long by walking around like a zombie. He has been a major pest and if he comes around me one more time today, I am going to kick him in his little butt. Victor overheard me talking to Tony about my dream or rather my nightmare.

I was trying to apologize to Tony and explain the things that happened in my dream. I wanted Tony to understand why I believed what I believed when I woke up. I feel like an idiot, but that dream felt so real. I feel awful and a little embarrassed that I thought that Tony, Pete, or anyone in Bear Country could have been a part of that awful group in my dream.