Journal 100

The nightmare I had last night was extremely disturbing. I dreamt I was back in Mathias’s jail. Mathias, Xavier, and Casey were on the outside of the jail cell laughing at me. Aleece was also on the outside of the jail cell but she was in a crib with a bottle just out of her reach. I was trying to reach thru the cell bars to give it to her but my arms wouldn’t reach. She was crying so hard. I was begging and begging for Mathias, Xavier, and Casey to help me. They just laughed and laughed.

I woke up crying, my heart was racing so hard I thought it was going to explode. I sat up in bed, no bars, no jail cell. Where was Aleece? I started to panic, and then I remembered that Aleece was with Casey down the hall. I jumped out of bed, grabbed my robe, and headed down the admin hallway to Casey’s room.  I didn’t knock; I just went in and picked up Aleece.  Casey was a little startled to find me in her room. I must have looked dreadful. She asked me if I was feeling ok. I hugged Aleece tight and simply said “I’m fine. Bad dream.”

Casey didn’t try to take Aleece away from me. She let me hug Aleece until I had finished. Casey invited me down to the cafeteria for a cup of tea. We ran into Tony on the way. He keeps some weird hours. We all had a nice conversation. Tony and I filled Casey in on everything that happened while she was away. It was probably about 4:30 in the morning when we decided to go back to bed. I gave Aleece back to Casey. Tony walked me back to my room.